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The Boy Who Broke Through The Mourning: A Review Of The Mudlark

February 1, 2026

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A story can be deeply moving. This is especially true when the smallest, most overlooked orphan boy manages to change the world of those in power. I recently sat down to watch the 1950 classic, The Mudlark, for the first time. I found myself unexpectedly caught up in its quiet gravity.

The story begins in the overcast, foggy days of London. The film follows Wheeler, a “mudlark”—one of the many orphaned children living in England during the Victorian Era. These children survived by scavenging for scraps in the mud of the River Thames. Wheeler’s life takes a new direction when he discovers a cameo of Queen Victoria. He becomes so infatuated by her beauty that he becomes determined to see the “Queen” in person.

A Queen in Hiding

What struck me most as I watched Irene Dunne’s portrayal of Queen Victoria was her isolation. During this time in history, the Queen spent fifteen years mourning deeply for Prince Albert. She hid behind the walls of Windsor Castle.

The Collision of Two Worlds

The heart of the movie happens when this dirty, soot-covered little boy successfully sneaks into the castle. He isn’t there to steal or cause mischief. He only wants to see the face of the woman he views as a mother figure.

When the Prime Minister, Benjamin Disraeli (Alec Guinness), finds him, he doesn’t force the mudlark to leave. He uses the boy’s presence to give a speech to Parliament about the “forgotten” people of England. He turns a “security breach” into a moment of advocacy.

This part of the movie saddened me deeply. I can’t imagine feeling so alone in life. You find a photograph and you pretend the photo is your mother. In Florida alone, there are roughly 17,000 children looking for a home. We have made so much progress since the Victorian Era. We have created so many innovations. Despite this, we still haven’t figured out how to make certain every child has a home.

The foster care system is overwhelmed. Child Protective Services are struggling to keep up. Children are at risk. There aren’t enough workers to manage the case files. To be honest, I often have no idea where to start or how to help. The few times I have stepped in, I felt like I hadn’t done enough—that the work is never truly finished.

A Call to Local Compassion

My heart struggles because I long to help these children. Living with chronic illness often makes me feel incapable of doing the physical work. What I can do now, but raise awareness from my little corner of the internet.

Countries all over the world still have children living like Wheeler. Even in the 21st century, children are starving and homeless. A pastor once said something that changed me:

“If you can’t minister to your neighbors, you will struggle to be a missionary to the nations.”

That sermon inspired me to look toward the community around me. In our area, First Coast Women’s Services is an excellent choice for those looking to make a difference. The Isaiah 117 House also offers great opportunities to contribute.

My Takeaway: Why We Tell Our Stories

The climax of this movie isn’t a grand gesture; it’s a conversation. When the Queen finally meets the small boy, her “frozen” heart begins to thaw. She realizes that by hiding away, she has lost touch with the people who need her most.

The Queen’s eyes were opened. I pray that one day our eyes will be opened to the work that needs to be done. Our country, our churches, and our communities need to find a way to work together. We should strive toward that same greater goal. We need to move past the arguing that takes place on both sides of the political aisle. If there is one thing we should all agree on, it is how to help those in crisis.

Ultimately, we need Jesus. He is the perfect example of helping the hungry, the sick, and the poor. We should strive to live as He did.

The Mudlark reminds us that:
- No one is truly invisible.
- A single voice (even a small, tired one) can break through the highest walls.
- Empathy is the bridge between those who suffer and those who lead.
If you enjoy historical dramas that are more about “heart” than “action,” I highly recommend giving this one a watch. This story beautifully reminds us that sometimes an individual from the very bottom can inspire those at the top. It’s about learning how to live again.
First Coast Women’s Services

They offer free, confidential support for women facing unplanned pregnancies, offering everything from ultrasounds to parenting classes and post-abortion/adoption healing.

How to help: You can donate baby supplies (diapers, wipes, clothing) or volunteer as a peer counselor.

Website: fcws.org
Isaiah 117 House (Baker/Nassau Counties)

This organization provides a safe, loving home for children awaiting foster care placement. Children are not sitting in a cold office. They are brought to a “happy and loving” home. Here, they can get clean clothes, a hot meal, and a soft bed.

How to help: They often need “Care Packages,” volunteers to help keep the home, and financial partners.

Website: isaiah117house.com
The struggles of the 17,000 children in Florida’s foster system are very real. The daily battles of the chronic illness community are equally genuine. Let us pray that we too can have the courage of Prime Minister Benjamin Disrae. May we also have the heart of the Mudlark to stand up. Let us advocate for one another.
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From Movies to Reality: Lessons on Love, hEDS, and Finding My Forever 🦓

January 26, 2026

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Does love look like the movies? Read my review of A Walk to Remember (2002) and a personal reflection on living with hEDS, chronic illness in marriage, and finding a love that is purer than fiction

I meant to write this yesterday, but my hEDS (Hypermobile Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome) got the better of me. Even now, as I sit down to type, my mind is foggy—but the memories stay.

A Trip Down Memory Lane: The Middle School Movie Outing

I remember being in the 8th grade when A Walk to Remember was released and I was over-the-top excited. Growing up in a small town, a night out at the movies didn’t happen often. Nonetheless, a group from our middle school church group had made plans to see the movie after church.

Looking back, I am struck by what wonderful people our chaperon’s were. Taking a group of middle schooler’s to the movies requires a specific bravery and patience! I can’t thank them enough—especially for putting up with me. My anxiety, mixed with pure excitement, turned me into one very chatty 8th grader. Yet, they generously gave up their evening for us. I only pray I can live up to the example they set.

A Walk To Remember: A Classic Tale Of Love And Spiritual Change

For those who don’t know, A Walk to Remember is a coming-of-age story. It centers on Landon Carter, an aimless youth. He is angry at the world. When a prank goes wrong, Landon is forced to atone for his crime through community service. That’s where he meets Jamie Sullivan—the local minister’s daughter and the perceived school “goody too shoes.”

Jamie is intellectual, kind, and generous to a fault. Her outlook on life baffles Landon at first, but over time, his interactions with her shift from “forced” to “voluntary.” During a school play, the spark between them becomes undeniable. Despite the “bad boy falls for the innocent girl” trope flashing in neon signs, their romance feels genuine. Through Jamie’s spiritual beliefs, Landon begins to have a new outlook on life. He sees the world as a brighter and happier place. Nonetheless, the hope of young love is eventually threatened by a secret Jamie reveals. This secret will make you wonder if their future happiness is at risk.

When Fiction Becomes Reality: My Journey With hEDS

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There is a famous line in the movie. Jamie says, “You have to promise not to fall in love with me.” To be honest, I said something very akin to my husband, Jon, before we became serious.

The “Promise” I Asked of My Husband ⚓

I laid it all out for him: my health, my anxiety, and my PTSD. I told him,

“I am in counseling. I am fixing the parts of me that are broken. I’ve made a lot of progress. But there is one part of me I can’t fix, and that is my sickness. I will have it for the rest of my life. If this is too much for you to commit to, please tell me now.”

He took a few days to think. Then he called. We’ve been together for 12 years now.

A Mature Perspective: Why Real Love Beats The Movies

The movie helped inspire my love of reading; for years afterward, I devoured every Nicholas Sparks book I find. At thirteen, nothing was better than a coming-of-age love story. But as I’ve matured, my perspective has shifted.

If you had asked 12-year-old me, I would have ranked A Walk to Remember a 10 out of 10. Now, I am an adult who has experienced the grit of real life. I have also experienced real love and real family. I’d give it a 6.

Some people call these movies cheesy, predictable, or overdone. To me, they are pure nostalgia. They remind me of that young girl searching for her “one true love.” I am so incredibly blessed that the search is over.

Sharing a life with someone is far better than anything I imagined at thirteen. It’s like having a sleepover with your best friend every single night. My heart is full. When two souls meet and become one, there is a sense of wholeness that simply can’t be explained.

When I look back at that 13-year-old girl in the theater. I wish I tell her: ‘It gets so much better than the movies.’ The real thing is harder, but it’s so much purer and Godlier than I have ever imagined. It’s not just a walk to remember; it’s a life to cherish.

How many years has it been for you and your ‘best friend’? I’m celebrating 12 years with Jon, and I’d love to celebrate your milestones with you below!

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Beyond Resolutions: Finding a New Rhythm in the Liturgical Calendar

January 24, 2026

Tired of New Year’s resolutions that don’t stick? Discover the beauty of the Liturgical Calendar. From Advent to Christmastide, learn how tracking the life of Christ creates a rhythm of faith that lasts all year.

Have you ever felt that after the glitter of New Year’s Eve fades, life suddenly feels… stagnant? We work so hard toward our goals, but the world outside remains dark, cold, and dreary. Day after day, we fall back into old habits, thinking, “Maybe next year will be different.”

I know I have. Over the years, I have changed. I’d like to think it was for the better. But it wasn’t because of a resolution I made on January 1st. Any real change in me has been the work of God, not my own doing.

A Different Way of Keeping Time: Our Anglican Journey

About four years ago, my husband Jon and I converted to Anglicanism. I discovered the Liturgical Calendar. It follows the life of Christ rather than the modern traditional calendar. This discovery has completely transformed how I study and interpret Scripture.

I feel so blessed by the ways my family and I can worship together. We cherish our Advent and Lent devotionals. We also appreciate the “Ordinary Times” of daily living. Growing up, I knew the biblical calendar was different. Yet, I never realized how much our modern way of tracking time affects our spiritual health.

The Year Begins with Waiting: Advent and Christmastide

In the Liturgical Calendar, the New Year doesn’t start with a party on January 1st. It begins with the first Sunday of Advent. This is a season of waiting and anticipation for the coming of Christ. We prepare our hearts through prayer, fasting, giving, and study. Using resources like Little Way Chapel’s devotionals has opened my eyes to the true meaning of the season. They have also opened my son Landon’s eyes to this meaning.

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The Twelve Days of Christmas

I used to think “The Twelve Days of Christmas” were the days leading up to the holiday. I was wrong! They are the twelve days leading to Epiphany (January 6th).

This is a time of rest. The hustle and bustle of preparation has ended, and the peace of being together as a family begins. I love keeping the tree up a little longer and enjoy the decorations we worked so hard to put up. We are only in the fifth day of Christmastide. God is using this quiet time to teach me things. I earlier overlooked these things in Scripture.

What is “Brephos”? Lessons from Luke 1

This morning, I was reading Luke 1. I’ll be honest—usually, I skim this chapter. I overlook the coming of Christ and jump right into Chapter 2 where Christ is born. Nonetheless, because the season has begun to slow down, I have had more time. I have thoroughly read through Luke Chapter 1. (How I have completely overlooked the preparations that God had made?) I dare to say this is the most important part. Without the preparation of the birth of Christ their would be no Christ. Or at least now how we know it.

I reflected on Mary and Elizabeth’s time together. In The Life-Giving Parent, I learned that Elizabeth was teaching her unborn son about the coming of Christ. She was also teaching him the teachings of the Old Testament even in the womb. Luke uses the word “brephos” (infant/unborn baby) to describe this. An unborn child is capable of learning the ways of God before he/ or she is ever born. How amazing is that!

“When Elizabeth heard Mary’s greeting, the baby leaped in her womb, and Elizabeth was filled with the Holy Spirit.” (Luke 1:41)

Without the slow pace of Christmastide, I have overlooked the beauty of that moment yet again.

From Epiphany to Ordinary Time

Soon, we will celebrate Epiphany. This marks the manifestation of Christ to the world. The Three Magi, His Baptism, and His first miracle are significant events. We hope to start new family traditions this year. One of these traditions is a Three Kings Cake. This will teach Landon about the beauty of Christ’s ministry to the Gentiles.

After this comes Ordinary Time. Many people worship only during major holidays, but Ordinary Time is where true growth happens. It is the “lived faith” outside of the celebrations. It’s the time when we see who we really are when culture isn’t expecting us to be religious.

The Journey to the Cross and Beyond

Our year continues through:

Lent: 40 days of repentance and spiritual preparation.
The Holy Triduum: Maundy Thursday through Easter Sunday.
Eastertide: A full 50-day celebration of the Resurrection! I love that we celebrate the joy of the empty tomb for nearly two months.
Pentecost: Marking the birth of the Church and the descent of the Holy Spirit.

Your Cheat Sheet to the Liturgical Year

The Season	The Mood	The Focus
ADVENT	🕯️ Waiting	Preparing our hearts for Christ’s arrival.
CHRISTMASTIDE	✨ Joy	12 days of celebrating the Incarnation.
EPIPHANY	🌟 Revelation	Christ being made known to the whole world.
ORDINARY TIME I	🌱 Planting	Following the early life and teachings of Jesus.
LENT	🍞 Reflection	40 days of repentance leading to the Cross.
EASTERTIDE	🎺 Victory	50 days of celebrating the Resurrection!
PENTECOST	🔥 Mission	The gift of the Spirit and the birth of the Church.
ORDINARY TIME II	🌳 Fruitfulness	Deepening our daily walk with God.

My Only Resolution: Pursuing Christ Daily

Through this rhythm, I’ve found a joy that isn’t stagnant. My prayer for the next four years is that my heart continues to learn and grow. My “New Year’s resolution” is simply this: to continue writing, reading, and pursuing Christ. Without Him, there is no hope. And without hope, how can I parent, be a good wife, or pray for a broken world?

I challenge you: Even if you aren’t Anglican, look into the Liturgical Calendar. Celebrate the Feast Days. Study the Saints and Missionaries. Don’t let yourself become complacent in “Ordinary Time.”

What is one way you can challenge your faith rhythm this year? Let’s talk in the comments!

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The Foster Care Crisis and Lessons from Mansfield Park

January 24, 2026

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Does wealth equal happiness? Explore this review of Jane Austen’s Mansfield Park (1999) and a deep reflection on the Florida foster care crisis. Learn how the church can support the 17,000 children in need.

I’ve been thinking lately about the idea of “having it all.” We often look at people with wealth and status. We assume they must be satisfied. Yet, the 1999 adaptation of Jane Austen’s Mansfield Park reminds us that a palace can be a very empty place.

A Cinderella Story with a Twist

Ten-year-old Fanny Price leaves her struggling family in Portsmouth. She moves to live with her wealthy relatives at their lavish country estate. This is a classic “Cinderella” setup. Fanny is raised as a companion to her cousins. She is essentially treated as a servant—albeit one with some educational perks. In a house defined by coldness and social climbing, Fanny finds only one true ally: her cousin Edmund Bertram.

As she grows into a spirited young woman, brilliantly portrayed by Frances O’Connor, she becomes smart and quick-witted. She also becomes a passionate aspiring writer. But she also carries a secret: a deep, unrequited love for Edmund, who seems entirely unaware of her heart.

The Illusion of “The Good Life”

What I love most about this version is the contrast. Fanny’s cousins were born into lavishness and wealth. On the surface, they have everything. But upon a closer look, you realize that just because you have wealth, it doesn’t make you happy. Fanny sees firsthand how unsettled her “lucky” relatives are. While they are trapped by vanity, her family also faces the pressures of their status. Fanny, despite her “lesser” position, possesses a richness of character they can’t buy. It’s a powerful reminder that “poverty of spirit” can exist even in a house full of fine silk.

The Sent Away Child: Fanny Price And The Foster Care Parallel

Watching this movie, I was struck by Fanny’s trauma of being sent away. This was seen through the eyes of someone so blessed in life. I can’t fathom my parents being in such difficult circumstances. Being sent to live with relatives is unimaginable for me. Thinking about how must Fanny have felt, leaving the only world she had ever known? Even more painful was seeing that Fanny wasn’t treated as an equal, but as a “lesser” servant.

I grew up with many cousins, and my aunts and uncles always treated me as one of their own. Thinking about Fanny’s isolation brought my mind to a reality much closer to home: the foster care system. My earlier neighbors are foster parents. During the time I knew them, so many children came and went through their doors. Their home is always open to any child needing love. My heart breaks for these children. I am so thankful for couples who make it their mission to love them.

The Reality Of The Foster Care Crisis In Florida

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I hope that one day my health will become manageable. Then, I can also foster children in need of a home. Now, in the state of Florida, there are over 17,000 children in need of foster care. That number is staggering.

How The Church Can Eradicate The Foster Care System

As Christians, we should be doing more. I recently read a heartbreaking report in the Baker County Press about foster parents being arrested for abuse. Our need is so great that sometimes children end up in homes where they aren’t safe.

Imagine if our churches banded together. If Christian families who were able and committed to adopting, we can eradicate the foster system. We show these children what a healthy family looks like. We show what Christ’s love looks like in action.A perfect example is The Church at Brook Hills. Their former pastor, David Platt, challenged his congregation to commit to foster care or adoption.

Through that one church alone, over 150 children found homes. Caring for the poor, the needy, and the children is a command Christ gives us throughout the Bible.

This year, let’s take the time to pray and see where God leads our hearts. How can we help the “Fanny Prices” right here in Macclenny Fl?

Join the Conversation! 💬

I’d love to hear your thoughts on this story and these reflections: Money vs. Happiness: Why do you think we still struggle with the idea that wealth is the key to a “settled” life? The Foster Crisis: Does your church have a ministry for foster families? How can we better support these children?

Foster Care Resource Guide: How You Can Help

If your heart was stirred by the “Call to the Church,” here are tangible ways to get involved. You can open your home or simply support those who have.

1. Official Florida Resources (The Essentials)
- Florida Department of Children and Families (DCF): The primary hub for fostering and adoption in our state.
  - Website: MyFLFamilies.com
- Foster Florida: A fantastic non-profit that provides “Village Wraparound Support” for foster families. They help offer meals, childcare, and supplies.
  - Website: FosterFlorida.org
2. Faith-Based Advocacy
- The Global Orphan Project (CarePortal): Many Florida churches use CarePortal. It’s a platform where DCF workers post specific needs, like a bed, car seat, or clothes. Local churches can fulfill these needs quickly.
  - Website: CarePortal.org
- Christian Alliance for Orphans (CAFO): This is the gold standard for how churches can lead the way in foster care. They offer resources for starting a “Foster Ministry” in your own congregation.
  - Website: CAFO.org
3. Local Support (Baker County & NE Florida)
- Family Support Services (FSS) of Duval and Nassau: They often cover our surrounding areas. They offer the training and licensing classes (PRIDE training) needed to become a foster parent.
  - Website: FSSJax.org
5 Ways to Help (Without Being a Foster Parent)

Not everyone is in a season where they can foster, but everyone can do something. As I mentioned about my own health, we can still be a part of the solution:
1. Become a Guardian ad Litem: Be a voice for a child in the court system. You are assigned one child and guarantee their best interests are heard.
2. The “Freezer Meal” Ministry: Foster placements often happen fast and in the middle of the night. Providing a week of frozen meals to a new foster family is a massive blessing.
3. Offer Respite Care: This requires a background check. It allows licensed foster parents to take a short break. You can care for the children for a weekend.
4. Donate “First Night” Bags: Many children arrive at foster homes with their belongings in a trash bag. Donating a backpack with new pajamas, a teddy bear, and a toothbrush makes a huge difference.
5. Support Aging-Out Youth: Kids who turn 18 in care often have no one. You can be a mentor to a young adult navigating the world for the first time.
Drop a comment below! Let’s talk about how we can be a light to those who feel “less than” in our world today. 👇
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Family, Faith, and the Blessing of a “Wrong Turn”

January 24, 2026

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A weekend journey through Jacksonville leads to a powerful lesson in Advent. Experience local art at Riverside. See a ‘Red Light Blessing.’ Learn how small acts of kindness and ‘Blessing Bags’ can spread Christ’s love.

Every few months, I plan a family outing. This usually happens when Jon has a long weekend. We explore new places in or around where we live. This weekend, our journey took us to the Riverside Arts Market and Memorial Park in downtown Jacksonville.

I treasure these trips because they are wonderful adventures for our son, Landon. They show him that the world is filled with all kinds of people. Being different is beautiful because we are all created in God’s image.

The Red Light Blessing

On our way to the market, a blessing occurred disguised as a mistake. Jon took a wrong turn, leading us down a side street where we encountered a man experiencing homelessness. At first, Landon was frustrated—not just because we were off-course, but because we were stuck at a red light.

But that red light turned into a teaching moment.

Sitting by the light, wearing rags and completely alone, was a man who needed to be seen. In that moment, God used something as simple as a snack bag in my car to brighten his day. When Landon asked, “Mommy, why did we give that man our snacks?” we were capable of talking about the goodness of God. We explained the true meaning of the season of giving.

Supporting Our Community

If you’ve never been to the Riverside Arts Market, you truly should go. It’s a vibrant space brimming with the creativity and hard work of local artists. While I was initially worried the crowds would overwhelm Landon, he was absolutely overjoyed. In fact, it was difficult slowing him down! He wanted to look at and touch everything.

He met so many wonderful people today simply by asking, “May I pet your dog?” My son is extroverted in every way. This is a beautiful departure from the typical expectations of a child with Autism. My heart is blessed by the way he can walk up to anyone and start a conversation. I can say for certain that my child has never met a stranger. It is the quality I admire most about him.

I love supporting local artists because their work truly matters. I prefer to see our money stay in the local economy. It’s my hope that more small businesses will thrive in our county. I’ve noticed the biggest hurdles for new shops are often a lack of a unique niche or inconsistent hours. That’s why I’m so excited about our newest local shop, Almost Sunday. Women of faith can shop for Bibles, journals, and clothing here. This is a fresh niche our community hasn’t seen before. I wish her the very best!

Reflections at Memorial Park

After a light lunch at Panera (a place I’ve missed since living in Raleigh!), we headed to Memorial Park. It is a stunning space on the St. Johns River, home to a humbling WWI memorial.

Staring up at the statue commissioned in 1924 and reading the 1,200+ names listed there is a heavy experience. My mind raced to the families who had to go on without their loved ones—families left broken by war. It is a reminder that even when we fight for something bigger than ourselves, there is always a loss. It can feel overwhelming.

Light After Darkness

In Hebrews 1:10-12, it says: “You, Lord, in the beginning laid the foundation of the earth, and the heavens are the works of Your hands; they will perish, but You remain.” It is staggering to think that God laid the foundations of the heavens and the earth. Yet, He foresaw that they would one day pass away. Sometimes I wonder how one small sin—eating a piece of fruit—results in all this death, sickness, and pain.

But in this season of Advent, I am reminded of these beautiful words by Jeremy Writebol: “Yes, the darkness is present. The darkness may get deeper still. But the promise is dawning. After darkness, light.”

A new day is coming. A King was born in a lowly manger. He is a Savior who will one day return to save us from this broken world. My faith isn’t found in earthly things. It’s found in the grace that meets me every morning in those still, small moments. When the pain feels like too much, I am reminded that He is bigger than my sickness. He is bigger than my dad’s cancer. He is bigger than war, politics, and kings. He is God, and He is in control.

Beyond the Baby in the Manger

As Christmas draws near, we celebrate His birth—but remember, He is no longer a baby. He is no longer in the ground. He has overcome death to save us all.

I didn’t actually intend to write about our outing today. I was originally planning a post about how much I love the show Sherlock! But my mind wouldn’t stop racing about the souls we met yesterday. I wonder about their lives and how I can be a light to those in need.

Jon and I have decided to start keeping “Blessing Bags” in the car—bags filled with protein bars, toothpaste, and essentials. I am excited to teach Landon more about Christ’s call to care for the sick and the needy. To love them, and to show them Christ’s love in return.

The Essential Blessing Bag Checklist

Keeping these in your car ensures you are always ready for a “Red Light Blessing.”

I’ve had a few people ask what we are putting in our car kits. To help you get started on your own ‘Red Light Blessings,’ I’ve put together this quick checklist.
- Protein & Nutrition: Beef jerky, protein bars, or trail mix (avoid hard granola bars as some have dental issues).
- Hydration: A sealed bottle of water or Gatorade.
- Hygiene Basics: Travel-sized toothbrush/paste, wet wipes, and deodorant.
- Weather Protection: Socks (the #1 requested item!), a poncho, or hand warmers.
- Spiritual Nourishment: A handwritten note of encouragement or a small card with a hopeful scripture (like Psalm 34:18).
- Seasonal Extras: Lip balm or travel-sized sunscreen for the Florida sun.
I am so excited to start our ‘Blessing Bag’ tradition with Landon. Have you ever had a ‘wrong turn’ lead to a beautiful moment of connection? I’d love to hear about your unexpected blessings in the comments!
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Is ‘While You Were Sleeping’ the Best Holiday Movie?

January 23, 2026

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Is While You Were Sleeping the ultimate Christmas movie? Read my review of this 90’s classic. I also share a personal story on the importance of family traditions. Discover why overcoming loneliness matters and why I’m fighting to keep my family’s Southern Christmas hayride alive.

“While You Were Sleeping” (1995) remains a quintessential—and gloriously unorthodox—Christmas romantic comedy.

If you love movies where the greatest love stories start with the most absurd misunderstandings, this one is for you. Lucy Moderatz (Sandra Bullock) is a sweet and lonely girl living in Chicago, waiting for her life to start. This film takes the familiar holiday setting and gives us something more refreshing, something different. It fills you with that cozy Christmas warmth. It’s like being covered in a cozy blanket cuddled on the couch with warm coffee. It also throws in just enough drama and deception to keep you asking what happens next. Quick question: In This movie were you, like me, rooting for Jack the entire time? Or did you fall in love with the handsome stranger Lucy saved on the subway? Let me know!

The Unlikely Setup

Lucy is a Chicago Transit Authority token collector who leads a quiet life only made brighter only by the daily sight of Peter Callaghan (Peter Gallagher), a dark and handsome commuter she silently longs to meet. Her life takes a dramatic turn on Christmas Day when she witnesses Peter fall onto the train tracks during an attempted mugging. Lucy, acting on adrenaline and a false sense of love, jumps on the tracks to rescue. While at the hospital, Peter’s injuries cause him to fall into a coma.

The Misunderstanding and the Deception

Lucy, consumed by her longing for Peter, quietly mutters the fantasy: “I was going to marry him.” And, that’s the moment when everything changed. Lucy’s life will never be the same again. A nurse overhears the comment. The misunderstanding quickly turns into chaos. The nurse incorrectly labels Lucy as Peter’s fiancee.

Before she can breathe a word of correction, she’s instantly enveloped by the big, spirited, and unbelievably welcoming Callaghan family. This isn’t just a mistake; it’s the acceptance and warmth Lucy has always longed for. What would you do in Lucy’s situation? Would you let the Callaghan family know about the misunderstanding? Or would you continue with the lie to continue feeling the warmth and love of Peters family? The warmth and love that Lucy has always wanted and so deeply needs.

The Real Connection

The more time Lucy spends with the Callaghan family the more Lucy struggles to keep her deception afloat. During this time, Lucy and Peter’s brother Jack (Bill Pullman) start spending more time together. Their relationship begins to genuinely grow. They share quiet moments, honest conversations, and Jack, unlike his comatose brother, sees who Lucy really is. It is through these stolen moments that the true emotional arc unfolds. Lucy isn’t just falling in love with a fantasy. She is falling in love with a reality. She is falling in love with Jack. She is also falling in love with the family that has mistakenly embraced her.

Themes of Honesty and Family

At its heart, the film cleverly explores the heavy themes of honesty and identity. Lucy’s unintentional deception created so many falsehoods that will come crashing down when Peter finally wakes up from his coma. It’s an uncomfortable, but necessary, reminder. Love bloom in strange circumstances. Yet, it can only thrive when it’s built on a foundation of truth.

More Than a Movie: A Call to Connection

This is why “While You Were Sleeping” transcends the holiday movie category for me. It’s a powerful reminder that loneliness is real, and people crave being a part of something bigger.As we head into the upcoming New Year, let this be your awakening! Don’t assume everyone has family and friends around. People need relationships to grow and thrive. It’s because of relationships with other people that we can embrace who we were meant to become.

Challenge yourself: Is there one person you can intentionally invite to a gathering or event in the next two weeks? You never know whose life you can change.

🏡 Here is a Story about how I Relate to the Callaghan Family

The movie’s theme of finding family resonates deeply with me. The blessing of connection is something I try never to take for granted. Here is my personal story:

Growing up, I was incredibly blessed. I had both parents under one roof. Honestly, I didn’t truly realize what a privilege that was until I got married. No worries about split holidays or choosing sides—just togetherness. Did you grow up with a similar blessing, or did your family structure teach you something different?

Beyond my parents, God blessed me with a rather quite large family on both sides. As I was watching While You Were Sleeping, I related instantly to the Callaghan’s! My dad’s side of the family is not a big, loud Italian family. But, we are definitely a big, boisterous Southern family!

Holding Onto the Magic

My heart was genuinely saddened this year. For the first time in 34 years, our family couldn’t host our yearly Christmas party and hayride. We sing carols to friends, family, and the elderly. It’s a pure, fun, and simply magical time. It is full of memories, love, and joy.

Our grandparents have passed. Our parents’ generation is getting older. A deep worry sets in. A depression takes hold in my heart: Will we let these traditions fade? I truly believe it’s time for us—the cousins—to step up and take charge. If not us, then who?

Does your family have a tradition you are personally fighting to keep alive? Tell me about it!

Inspired to Serve: Your Invitation

Watching While You Were Sleeping caused a stirring in my heart. It pushed me to ask: Who do I know that is lonely and can use a family? How can I help serve people—not just at Christmas, but all year long?

If you are looking for family or a sense of togetherness this holiday season, you are warmly invited. There is a place I hold dear: St. Peter’s in the Glen Anglican Church.

Join Us:
- Sunday Service: 10:00 AM
- Christmas Eve Service: 5:00 PM (Featuring carols, candlelight, and wonderful fellowship.)
➡️ Your Turn!

A Few Final Questions for You: Did you see a small act of service this week? What was it, and how did it inspire you? Or in what ways can You show kindness to others?

Share the positivity below! 👇
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Discover the Power of Journaling: Tools and Practices

January 22, 2026

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A beginner’s guide to journaling for emotional release and faith. Learn about Selah, the ‘Three Good Things’ practice, and the tools I use to manage chronic illness stress.

The Unspoken Word: A Beginner’s Guide to Finding Freedom Through Journaling

In my last post, A Moment of Inspiration, I shared how journaling has been my lifeline. It hasn’t just saved me; it’s given me a sense of purpose. After publishing that post, I realized many people are interested in journaling. Yet, they often don’t know where to start.

If you’re carrying a heavy heart today, I invite you to grab a notebook and just start. You don’t need the “right” words—you just need to let them out. Here is my personal guide. These are the tools and practices that helped me. They turned my anxiety into a beautiful collection of “unspoken words.”

The Tools of the Trade

People often ask how I manage the anxiety and stress of chronic illness. My secrets are lined up on my bookshelves. To me, a journal is a sacred space where my mind finds its freedom. Here is what I use:
- The Journal: I prefer Eccolo Hardcover Journals. They are sturdy and feature beautiful designs with a ribbon bookmark. I love that they are consistently the same size, which keeps my bookshelves looking organized!
- The Pen: A great pen is a must. I use WENYUAN Ballpoint Pens. They allow the words to flow as quickly as my heart needs to release them. (I even bought a set for my mother-in-law, and she’s a fan now, too!)
Your Journaling Guide: 5 Steps to Get Started

1. Find a Dedicated Space Find a spot where you can see God’s creation. I prefer sitting outside, watching the leaves, the animals, and my son playing. Being out in the sunshine is a proven way to elevate your mood and clear the mental fog.

2. Follow the “No Filter” Rule Don’t worry about grammar or making a mistake. Honesty not perfection is what you are trying to achieve. When I first started, my mind was so riddled with anxiety that I couldn’t form a cohesive thought. Someone told me: Just start with one word. Eventually, those words became sentences, and those sentences became this blog.

3. Always Date Your Entries It is incredibly moving to look back a year later. You can see how God answered a prayer that felt impossible at the time. When I read my old journals, I’m reminded of just how far I’ve come.

4. Practice “Selah” When You’re Stuck In the church, Selah is a meditative practice of sitting in silence. When I have “writer’s block,” I set a timer for 15 minutes and just sit in stillness. I focus on my heart, mind, and soul. Then, I write down the very first thing that pops into my head.

5. Look for the “Three Good Things” In her book One Thousand Gifts, Ann Voskamp encourages a daily practice. She suggests writing down three good things each day. These can be small but meaningful. They don’t have to be big!
- Small: “My son gave me a hug today.”
- Big: “My father’s surgery went well.” When I practice this, my entire mood shifts because I start actively looking for the good in every day.
I’d love to know. If you were to write down your ‘Three Good Things’ for today right now, what would they be? Let’s fill the comments with a little bit of gratitude today!
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✍️ A Moment of Inspiration

January 22, 2026

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When your mind feels like a prison and your heart is broken, where do you turn? Read my personal prayer for peace, healing for my father, and the transformative power of writing your prayers to God.

Every now and again, I get inspired to write. My body, mind, and soul fill with words that are screaming to be released.

This inspiration struck during church on Sunday. Father Craig was delivering his sermon about peace and while he was preaching. I stopped taking notes and starting writing my prayer.

When I started this blog, I posted about my intentions. I wanted it to be primarily a movie and book review space. It was also meant to be a place for whatever else inspire me. This was certainly one of those moments.

This is my prayer

Lord, my peace hasn’t been strong for a while now. I’ve been rattled, my faith has been shaken, my heart has been broken. I feel my self falling away from you.

Forgive me for not drawing close to you. Create a longing in my heart to seek you each new day.

I pray that I can find a way to start worshiping you outdoors. As I sit and listen, I want to see the beautiful world you created. This way, I can worship you. The beauty around me has faded away and I long for its return. I do not want to be confined to the walls that fill my home, mind, and body. My mind has trapped me in a prison and I am I reaching out to be free. Please release me from my mind!

Heal my broken heart so I can conquer any trials that come my way.

Heal my dad. Make him strong again. My heart is yearning for the day to see my daddy riding off on his motorcycle. I dream of the times at the lake on his boat with his grandchildren all around him. I would even be grateful for something small. It would be wonderful just to see him sit painlessly at the dinner table. I wish for his mind to be clear again.

One Final Thought…

One of my professors in college encouraged me to start writing my prayers and journaling my thoughts. I’ve never been great with words when it comes to expressing my emotions. This process has really helped me a great deal. I’m so thankful for Dr. Williams encouraging me to start writing. It really has made a difference in my life. I now have journals lining my bookshelves. These journals are filled with words that have never been spoken. They were released to help me process my emotions.

Dr. Williams changed my life by suggesting I write my prayers. Do you have a specific way you ‘release’ your thoughts—whether it’s through music, art, journaling, or long walks? I’d love to hear what helps you process the heavy moments.

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The Christmas Candle: Hope and Faith in Film

January 22, 2026

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A review of Max Lucado’s ‘The Christmas Candle’ through the lens of the Anglican Advent tradition. Discover a story of faith vs. cynicism and the true meaning of the Season of Hope.

As Christmas comes around, I finally feel the cool Florida air all around me. The leaves have started to fall. I long to start the Season of Advent with my family. I am especially eager to start it with my son, L, who is seven. As an Anglican, Advent is a very special time in our faith. We are preparing for the coming of Christ, the Light of the World. Each week, we read different scriptures in the Bible prophesying the Christ child. We also light a candle symbolizing His different attributes. This is the first week of Advent, and the candle we lit on the Advent Wreath this week was Hope. Jesus is the Hope of the world. When I read that The Christmas Candle is centered around the Anglican Christmas tradition, I became very excited. To my knowledge, I have never watched a Christmas movie that involved the traditional Anglican Advent. I was curious to see how close the movie was to the tradition I hold dear. Below is my full review of the film.

Max Lucado’s The Christmas Candle

When I sat down to watch The Christmas Candle, I didn’t know what to expect. The ratings had very mixed reviews, so I knew the movie would go either way. Still, unlike other Christmas movies, this wasn’t centered around Santa Claus, toys, or a cheesy Hallmark romance. To be honest, it was refreshing to watch something different.I was looking for a beautiful story with breathtaking views of the countryside and a message about remembered hope. This film absolutely delivered.

Faith vs. Cynicism

I found the introduction of the new pastor, David Richmond, to be the central conflict that really hooked me. It was heart-warming to see a time when a pastor was truly the center of the town. The pastor was someone the people relied on during hard times to reassure them of their faith. Richmond is a progressive and skeptical man. He arrives intent on updating the villagers’ beliefs and techniques. He sees the candle tradition as nothing more than foolish superstition. His struggle to reconcile his theological beliefs with the profound faith of the villagers felt deeply authentic to me. It’s not a struggle against a villain. It’s a struggle against cynicism. I think it is a far more compelling battle for a Christmas movie. I understand David’s internal struggle. He tries to reconcile his theology with what seems like an old wives’ tale.

The Verdict

In the end, The Christmas Candle is a beautiful meditation on faith, community, and the nature of miracles. It is a great reminder. Sometimes, the greatest miracles aren’t a flash of light. They are simple acts of compassion, forgiveness, and finding connection in an isolated world. This is a movie worth watching and sharing with friends and family. Advent only comes once a year, and it’s foolish to get caught up in the busyness of life. This is a time to celebrate with those you love. It is also a moment to study the scriptures. We await the coming of Christ our Lord.

Now it’s your turn-I’ve realized I’m a sucker for movies set in the English countryside! Do you prefer your Christmas movies to be modern and high-tech? Or do you, like me, crave that traditional, old-world feeling?
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My Story of Support, Faith, and the Miracle of Landon

January 21, 2026

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A personal story of faith, a high-risk hEDS pregnancy, and the miracle of Landon’s birth. Discover why community support is vital for women in crisis. Learn how the First Coast Women’s Center in Macclenny, FL, changes lives.

Last night, I had the wonderful opportunity. I attended the charity dinner supporting the First Coast Women’s Center in Macclenny, Florida. After hearing about all the life-changing work this center does for families, I felt compelled to share my own story.

Before my son, Landon, was born (DOB: 01/16/2018), doctors told me I would most never conceive. Yet, God blessed my husband and me with a child.

Landon’s journey was difficult from the start. During the first trimester, I became violently ill, and doctors recommended that we consider termination. My husband and I refused. I was then hospitalized for three weeks and underwent surgery with the possibility that Landon not survive. He did.

Throughout my entire pregnancy, I battled recurring kidney stones and endured the painful symptoms of hEDS (a connective tissue disorder). These complications constantly risked early labor or uterine rupture, but through prayer, God kept us safe.

Despite warnings from doctors that he would be born prematurely, Landon arrived on time. We were concerned about withdrawals. I required pain medication throughout the pregnancy to manage the stones. It also helped to prevent early labor. He did not. After five days in the NICU, Landon was released, healthy and checking out wonderfully. Our God is a good God, and He hears our prayers! Thank you to everyone who prayed for Landon and our family. He is a fighter and I thank Jesus everyday for him.

Why Support Matters

After everything I endured, I gained a new, profound understanding of why a woman would consider abortion.

Throughout my entire pregnancy, I faced bed rest, hospitalization, and surgery. Despite these challenges, I was surrounded by the loving support of family, friends, and my church. Their constant presence and prayers were my anchor.

If I had faced those medical crises alone, I would have had no emotional or financial support. Without faith to lean on, I honestly understand why a woman would feel abortion was her only choice.

This is why First Coast Women’s Services in Macclenny are so critically important. They are not just about saving unborn babies. They offer the faith, love, and community that scared and vulnerable women need to make the choice for life.

Last night’s charity dinner warmed my heart, seeing our entire community gathered to support the FCWS. This, to me, is the true meaning of women supporting women.

Have you ever had a moment when a friend showed up for you. Or it was a community member who appeared right when you needed it most? I’d love to hear your story of support in the comments.

I’m sharing my journey with hEDS to let you know you’re not alone. You are dealing with a diagnosis. Maybe it’s just a tough season. Feel free to share your ‘win’ for the week below. We’re in this together.

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